Alibi

From the scrapes and bruises To the familiar abuses I'll kick and scream but it never changes anything I could spill my guts out Wearing my best little girl pout And I almost missed it But nobody said that this was gonna be easy This is not the man I hoped to be And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding I don't know how to word it I just started to deserve it And all my, all my faces are alibis And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be Most times it all comes out wrong I don't know the words but I'll hum along There's nothing famillar here anymore To anyone or anything left to feel alive And I still taste that sickness And it makes me crazy without it at best But I'm in the same place I used to be But I'm trying harder not to be This is not the man I hoped to be And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding I don't know how to word it I just started to deserve it And all my, all my faces are alibis And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be So what am I? What am I? So What Am I? And all my, all my faces are alibis This is not the man I hoped to be And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding I don't know how the words go I just started not to say no Don't want it, Don't get it I know you won't regret it Don't surface, Don't surface And I feel so damned worthless Another day is gone and all my faces are alibis All my faces are alibis And me, I'm half the man I wanted to be