Hard Heart

Lately my heart just been bleedin Wondering how im still breathing Maybe it's all of this drinking Maybe its all of this thinking I was just tryna be decent Then it all went on a descent Misunderstandings burning the bridges i worked so damn hard to build I dont know why God doin me like this i wanna ask what's the deal Maybe he really don't like me Sadly im thinkin it's likely I dont what else to do All of this shit i been through All of this pain that i feel Tired of keepin it real Really been trying my best Sadly i still been a mess Bein weighed down with regrets How much time do i have left Lately it's feelin like less I ain't been feeling my best Hopin tomorrow be brighter Fuck it i might just get higher Gon and drink this you might feel a lil better Gon and smoke this you might heal a lil better Gon and pop this Know you feel a lil better If it takes the pain away my nigga it's whatever Really been tryna find meaning Me and the spirit convening He just be leaving me ringing I don't know what that be meaning Really i wanna be happy Joy always come to me lastly Maybe it's something i did Back when ya boy was kid Hopin it really ain't karma Rotating round like a shawarma Knowin i do not deserve it Life Just be feelin so worthless Why do i try shit why am i here Thinking it's better if i disappear Hopin this pain just might fade away By sipping this wine or chugging this beer Can't make decisions my mind ain't too clear Tryna hold on to the things i hold dear Tryna find ways just make it all right Knowin these thoughts keep me thinking all night Hoping one day i feel better Tired of writing these letters Tired of feeling so tired This ain't the life i desired Gon and drink this you might feel a lil better Gon and smoke this you might heal a lil better Gon and pop this Know you feel a lil better If it takes the pain away my nigga it's whatever